PW Review: The Root///Surviving Negative Reviews

The first review for my debut novel The Root is out from Publisher’s Weekly and I want to profusely thank whoever took the time out of their day/life to sit down and read my book and write this review. I know a lot of books are submitted for review and they chose mine. However the review itself, is…not complimentary.

I was sick in bed when my publicist emailed this to me and like a good publicist pointed out the one or two nice things they said about me (Thanks, Bri!) so it was another blow on a bad day. I took a while to sort my feelings about it and I arrived at this post. As a debut novelist it’s been interesting to chronicle my expected reactions to things to my actual reactions. I was talking to a friend recently and mentioned that I was just waiting for the first review to come out because good or bad it would be like pulling the band aid off quickly and at least the waiting would be over. I’m surprised at how true that is. I’m not as completely devastated by this as I thought I would be.

I’m not saying I don’t feel bad about the review and won’t feel bad in the future. I suffer from depression and I know I’ll beat myself up about this at some point but here’s the thing – I knew that getting a book published meant that there would be reviews and not all of them would be great.

Did I want them all to be positive, raves about my genius and talent? Of fucking course I did. What author wouldn’t? This is a novel I worked over for the past two years, I sweated, cried and damn near died over this book. It’s my first time exposing myself to the wider reading world and I wanted it all to be this amazing experience but I’m a realist down to my core.

And I have a choice when a mixed or negative review comes in (and I’m sure there will be some whether professional or not for this book and every other book I author in my long career, that’s the life of an artist) I can let it make me angry and scream at the reviewer/review site on social media about how they just don’t understand, I could let it damage my self esteem so much I stop writing (those may seem extreme but I’ve seen both) or I could try and learn from it, re-dedicate myself to working harder on my craft and move on to the next step in my career.

I have confidence that there will be more reviews of my book and that it will find it’s audience. I also know that a review is only one person’s opinion. Maybe my book just wasn’t for that person or for some other reason they didn’t enjoy it. Is that on me as an author? Yes and no. It is on me to be the best at writing what I want to write the way I want to write it, after that it’s up to quite a few other factors whether someone likes it or not.

I don’t think any writer should view themselves as done growing as an artist, done at getting better. I think when you decide you’re good enough? That’s when you start to stagnate. I know I’m a better writer than I was even six months ago. My writing style is never going to be for everyone but it’s going to get better because I am going to get better and there’s no limit to that.

“I’mma keep running cause a winner don’t quit on themselves.”
– Beyoncé

Classic SF Film: Lizzie Borden’s Born in Flames

Lizzie Borden’s Born in Flames is the classic science fiction film you might have never seen. The amazing socio-political science fiction film you’ve been waiting for? Was made in 1983.


Live in that photography, cause it is everything.

I was made aware of Born in Flames years ago in a Lesbian/Queer Representation in Media class. It’s a mockumentary but I hate that term for films like this, mockumentary implies comedy and films like Born in Flames and Watermelon Woman may have funny parts but they are not comedies. There’s probably a term for a film that uses the documentary style not for mockery I’ve yet to learn.

The movie starts with a science-fictional (and really the only bit of science fiction in the film but a very important bit) premise – we are ten years past a socialist-democrat revolution and everything is equal. Except not really. Misogyny is still tolerated, as is racism and classism and all the other -isms. The revolution is slowly becoming like the old regime and serving some citizens more than others. Then things begin to get even worse.


Honey (Honey), Isabel (Adele Bertei) & Zella Wylie (Flo Kennedy)

The film refuses to be summarized simply, it has documentary portions and portions that are much more like narrative film. There is no main protagonist, there are instead many different women who share their positions. There are the two different radical underground radio stations – Radio Ragazza & Phoenix Radio – run by Isabel & Honey respectively who share some ideals but have very different focuses and perspectives. Then there’s Adelaide Norris and the other leaders of The Women’s Army and the three white women who run the Socialist Review (one played by a very young Kathryn Bigelow) and the older activist Zella Wylie (played by actual activist Flo Kennedy). All of them sharing their experiences and opinions of the state of the the new socialist-democratic republic. As the cracks begin to widen, we see them take different positions and different actions in reaction. Many storylines parallel journeys of actual civil rights leaders in the 50s, 60s & 70s. In many ways the protagonist of the film? Is the collective women as a force. Men are negligible in this film, the only ones who really appear are on the side of evil (read the interview link down below for more info on why Lizzie Borden did this, also on how there was actually very little script.)

Like any good documentary many points of views are represented and  you as the viewer are allowed to interpret and understand along with the characters. I also hesitate about not calling this a real documentary, because though the story may be untrue the emotions and factions and beliefs are not. The divisions in feminism that Lizzie Borden explores in the film? Are the very divisions we still talk about today. The hypocrisy she calls out in many of the leading figures in the government are still visible in our elected leaders.


1983? Or 2016?

The things The Women’s Army fights for, are not things that are made-up or imaginary goals – an end to misogyny, sexual assault, racism, heterosexism, classism. Lizzie Borden does not leave any of these isms to languish and through the format is able to show us how they interweave and inform each other and how even some activists can be blind to them. The themes and story that Born in Flames tells includes many things we are dealing with today: equal treatment under the law, anti-police brutality, the inequity of the justice system, an end to the biases that have tainted this country for centuries. It will make you sad for the fact that we still deal with these so much and hopeful that such powerful art was being made about it even 33 years ago.

Some enterprising and blessed soul has uploaded the entire film to Youtube. Watch it below. It’s worth it.

In my search for Born in Flames images online I found a few other people writing really smart things about this film. I will say that I have tried my best to avoid spoilers in the above but some of these pieces assume you have already seen the film, proceed at your own risk.


The Feminisms of ‘Born in Flames’  by Heather Brown in BITCH FLICKS

We Still Need the Women’s Army: Form and Politics in Lizzie Borden’s Born in Flames by Brent Bellamy in CLEO: A JOURNAL OF FILM AND FEMINISM

And a WONDERFUL interview of the filmmaker Lizzie Borden (yes, that’s her real name) by Betty Sussler in Bomb Magazine in 1983 right after the film’s release. 

PPZ Review & P&P Publication News!

I am a huge Pride & Prejudice fan, yes also of Jane Austen in general but specifically Pride & Prejudice. I’ve read the book multiple times, seen most of the adaptations and own the seminal (for me) 6 hour BBC miniseries starring Colin Firth & Jennifer Ehle.

People knew this so when Pride, Prejudice & Zombies was published I got it as a gift and read it cover to cover. My response was an underwhelming “Eh.” The zombie aspect didn’t really add anything to story itself and there were some really uncomfortable moments of orientalism. There also seemed to be this obsession with Darcy’s “most English parts” and for the life of me I couldn’t tell if the author was talking about Darcy’s ass or his crotch. The one really fascinating C-plot is *SPOILER ALERT FOR THE BOOK* that Charlotte Lucas is infected and begs Lizzie to spare her because she wants to experience married life before she fully turns. Lizzie acquiesces and later when she goes to visit her friend? Charlotte has made the full transition to zombie status and no one notices.  Not her new husband, not the famous zombie killer Lady Catherine, no one but Lizzie. I thought this was a really great insight into how women’s health and well being is often ignored by others around them but it never really goes anywhere.

Now I’m the first to admit that some things work visually that just don’t work on the page. PPZ seemed likely to be one of those things. When I saw the initial full trailer:

I was excited and all in. I love a combination of period piece and warrior women, not a combination we get often. I saw the film and they added some things to the plot of the book that worked – the idea of zombies who can maintain their composure – and some things that didn’t – an oddly divided map of England/London that only added confusion. Overall my feeling of the film was…meh

– Some great fight scenes, especially when it’s all the Bennet sisters fighting together
– The sisters sparring beneath the house
– When the cinematography was on? It was great! Same with costumes.
– Matt Smith as Mr. Collins? Was utterly fantastic.
– Every time Mrs. Bennet was on screen I wanted to scream “Tilly!” Only Miranda fans will get that one.

– Lena Headley is entirely, ridiculously, unbelievably too young to play Lady Catherine. Like at least twenty years too young, it kept yanking me out.
– The actresses playing the Bennet sisters were so milquetoast & similar. It was like when Ryan Murphy casts male romantic leads. They all had to have different hair colors and glasses and such so the audience could tell them apart. Or at least so I could.(Surprisingly the actress who played Mary seemed to be putting the most into it.)
– They made Lizzie emotionally weak which she never really has been, like that initial scene where she overhears Darcy disparaging her and she fires right back? In the film she goes outside and cries. What the fuck? That’s not my Lizzie Bennet.
– It was entirely too long. I could have edited that down by thirty minutes and made a much tighter action film.
– Most of the performances were meh

Also I should say I saw both Deadpool and SW:The Force Awakens right after which were excellent so that might have tainted my opinion of PPZ.

In Pride & Prejudice related publishing news. Shipwreck, the erotic fan fiction competition I’ve participated in has an anthology coming out.

Loose Lips: Fanfiction Parodies of Great (and Terrible) Literature from the Smutty Stage of Shipwreck

Some fantastic authors are included in this collection, including Seana McGuire, John Scalzi, Mara Wilson, Naomi Novik, Holly Black and many more including ME!

My story is a Pride & Prejudice entitled The Sisters Lucas which focuses on, you guessed it, the sisters Lucas. Though specifically the younger sister Maria. It’s an exploration of power and sex and gender and I hope everyone loves it.

P.S. – So much of my story can be blamed on K. Tempest Bradford. She was visiting and we re-watched the six hour miniseries and she kept pointing out the girl that turned out to be Maria Lucas. In all my previous viewings I thought she was just different bland girls brought in to fill in the background. It was Tempest who pointed out sad Maria, who just wanted to be friends and was ignored by everyone. After that the story just came out of me.


Writing Self-Challenge: 2 weeks of HELL

Every once in a while I get a bit manic and overconfident and give myself a challenge to complete in an effort to “fix” my life/trajectory.

This should not be news to any creative types out there I think a lot of us do this on different levels. This time however I’ve bitten off entirely more than I can chew.

My debut novel The Root is due out on June 7th. The MS for the second in the trilogy The Tree is due in July. I’ve been working on it and other novels piecemeal throughout the last few months but the time has come to really focus on concentrate on working on the second novel.

However, there’s this YA novel (tentative title: Deader Suburb Blues or DSB for short) I’ve been working on, that’s sort of a zombie detective novel mixed with gov’t conspiracy and surveillance state/reality show stuff.

And I want to finish it before I focus all my attention on THE TREE. So I’m giving myself the next two weeks, until April 1st, to finish a really rough (like incredibly rough) first draft of DSB. 

I’m putting it out here on my site because having other folks know about it will make it more of a deadline for me and I do well with deadlines. I don’t know if I can actually do this but I plan to do my best.

Should I mention that the draft is only at 2k words right now? Maybe not.

I can do this. Beyonce is always telling us we can do whatever we want, I’m clinging to that.

All My Shipwreck Fanfiction – Links

So at a recent at Strut called Black Love that I co-hosted (P.S. – It was fucking amazing!) my participating in Shipwreck – The Literary Erotic Fanfiction Copmpetition and where they could ready my stories. They are all on Shipwreck SF’s tumblr but for easiness I tracked down all the links for y’all.

the giver

My very first Shipwreck was in August 2014 & it was The Giver and my prompt was:
The Pills – which for those who don’t know are the pills that are given to everyone to stop the stirrings, i.e. sexual desire a.k.a. horniness. Warnings for sex & bad choices.

Part 1 & Part 2


Then in January 2015 it was Twilight and my prompt was The Baseball Game which meant I had to read practically the whole book. It was a lot, I drank a lot of whiskey & tweeted it.
Warnings for sexytimes & the outdoors &…puppet sex

Brought To You By The Letter…


Finally in October 2015 I was invited to write for one of my favorite King stories: Carrie. My prompt was her mother Margaret White & I went for something more topical & political this time.
Warnings for sex, strap-ons & Kim Davis

Margaret White: Sword of God

Busy Month Ahead.

I should be getting the galleys for The Root very soon! So excited/nervous/scared!

February is going to be very busy:
Deadlines –
1. My pitch for a RPG short story anthology was accepted! Don’t want to give too much detail until the contract is all signed and stuff but I loved this RPG as a teen and still own a couple of the sourcebooks
2. POC Destroy SF – Deadline 2/19. I’m working on a short story to send in, thinking about working on a flash to submit as well
3. Got an invitation to submit to a speculative poetry online magazine! (My poetry page will be going up soon)
4. Pank! – I love them and want to submit something before they close on 2/15

Readings –
1. I’ve been asked to go back to my grad school and speak to a class which is so amazing and humbling because I remember so clearly sitting in those classes and looking at the people coming in to speak and thinking – one day.
2. I will be co-hosting a reading called Black Love in an Francisco – more details to come
3. I will once again be competing in Write Club SF! on 2/16 at the Make Out Room in San Francisco. I’m hoping to take home a third trophy.
4. Storytelling @ Awaken in Oakland. This is my very first like ‘storytelling’ event so fingers crossed. Also winners get paid and I love when you can make money doing what you love.
5. I am once again doing Perverts Put Out

Novels in Progress
The Matchmaker – my standalone retelling of Job
The Tree – Second in my Wrath & Athenaeum


2016 is here and thank go because 2015 was…I wanna say a piece of shit but some really positive things happened to me in 2015. There were just some really negative things too.

Here’s to 2016 leaning more on the positive side! And to my new website/blog!